Unwritten

My last blog post was full of heartache, confusion, and just being unsure of myself.

Since then, I have realized that we are doing fine at work without a Director. I only have a few more weeks of grad school. My best friend just got her first kiss, which doesn't have anything to do with my job, but I am so excited for her. Yippee!!

The most important thing is that I have gotten a new job. I will be a Director of Operations at a Mental health agency. Me? A Director? Yeppers!! My last day here will be June 1st. I will be in tears, but right now I'm just excited about what the future holds for Husband and I.

What's husband doing? Oh yeah, he's getting a promotion too. Woot! It's a race to see who starts their new jobs first. He doesn't have a set day yet and his actual interview is this week.

I feel that we are literally "blessed beyond measure." I also got a new ride. She's a beauty. I got a blue 2010 Chevy Equinox which I love. Her name is Blue Ivy. Yeah, I totally named her after Beyonce's baby.

I can't wait to be out of school, making more money, and seeing what else God has up His majestic sleeves.

Loss

Hello Blog World!!

I haven't blogged in forever.

Here is what you have missed:

• I've lost 30 lbs! Heck yes!!!


• I ran a 1/2 Marathon with a best friend from high school.


• I'm about to start my last semester of grad school.

Here is what I really wanted to write about, my boss has resigned. I work for a medium sized organization, but there are only 5 people in my office. We are all women and we are extremely close. It has been said that it is very odd to find a workplace like we have. People have bragged about how there isn't any caddiness amongst us and how we really do have each other's backs. I love everyone I work with dearly.

It hit me like a cannonball when the Director announced that she was leaving. She told us the last day of work in 2011 and now her final day is here. I can't really explain the emotions that are being put through my head. I feel like a sheep who doesn't know which direction to head next. I am also comforted in the fact that God knows exactly where my next steps will lead me. I knew that I was preparing to leave this place once I graduated, but I always imagined that everything else would stay the time. It would be the place that I came back to to say hey. It would be like high school. She is struggling with the fact that she is leaving us too. She hasn't said as much, but her boyfriend let us know that there are many nights that she has cried at the thought of leaving us behind.

We don't know what the center will do with her position. I applied for it, but they said that they were going to check the budget and at this point they aren't going to hire anyone. We will just be a shell of a center until they figure out what to do with us. The office manager and I have started applying for new jobs. I'm going to try to hold out till June, because that's when I'll be done with school, but I don't know if I can make it.

God only knows what's going to happen next.

My Safety Net

My mom told me that you aren't a true runner until you pee or poop in public. I might be eating my words later, but I will never be a real runner if that is what it comes down to. While I am training for the half-marathon, McDonald's is my safety net, or safety toilet if you will.

Bolivar streets run on a really easy grid system and I run on the side that leads to McDonalds. When I started my run at 6:00am, I knew immediately that I was in trouble. My stomach would clench and then as soon as I would decide to head to the golden arches I would feel fine again. I was playing constant mind games with my tummy. Do I? or Do I Not? Then I amused myself with thinking about how funny it would be to use the restroom in public along my training path. Let's see, where would the best place be to go...First Baptist? the high school? the elementary school? I know! Across the street from a client's home! See, it's just not gonna happen for me.

I guess I'm just not that hardcore.

I have not posted here in over a month. That is just unacceptable. It's not like I don't check my blogs every day.

Today I would like to toot my own horn. I had the best run ever this morning!! It wasn't that it was incredibly long or anything, but it was pretty effortless. That shows that I'm making a lot of improvement. With the past week being so freakin' hott, I have felt miserable when I have been running. I have been regretting my decision of signing up for the half marathon in December and really feeling alone and dejected. I wasn't seeing any progress, and in fact I was seeing negative progress if that was even possible.

There were days where I knew that I had run 2 miles and I would look down at my watch and see that I hadn't even run a mile. Oh my gosh. I was miserable. The positive side of things was that I kept trying. On the days that I was supposed to run, I ran. Even if I wasn't able to run the entire time I would run/walk the distance.

Today was different though. I thought it was going to be the same. I had the worst night of sleep that I have ever had in a LONG time. I was up for so long, i thought I might as well go run at 3:30 since I was up. I ended up leaving at 5:50, but I think the difference might have been that I knew that I was going to be tired so I made some iced coffee before I hit the door. I try not to be a big coffee drinker, especially before I run but this really did the trick. I had enough energy to keep me going. I kept a good pace the entire time and before I knew it. I had reached my distance for the day which was 3.5 miles. Rock on! I proudly wore the sweat on my face as I strutted back to my house. I was literally dancing in my street. I wonder what my neighbors thought of me as I shook my groove thing in my driveway. Oh well, they were probably just getting their lazy tails out of beds while I was kicking butts and taking names!

Cross Training?

My plan with training was going to get my 3 mile run to a place where it was as normal as breathing. That was until I went for my first run on Tuesday, and I ran my 3 miles effortlessly. Well, maybe effortlessly isn't the best word but I wasn't miserable and I knew that I was able to officially start my training.

If you are interested HERE is the training plan I am using. I chose this one because you aren't running on Mondays. On Monday's I need as much energy as possible for class and for nothing else. I can get up and do some yoga and free weights on Monday.

I'm a little worried about my cross training options. Everything I read said that your cross training can be swimming, biking, zumba, skiing, or anything that is using other muscles besides the ones you use for running. I even read somewhere that you could walk if you wanted to. That's what I chose to do this morning. I put the leash on Portia and hit the pavement. I didn't walk as fast as I probably should have, but at least I was doing it. I'm excited about seeing if I'll be able to run the 4 miles this week.

That will be a new personal best for me, but the fun part is that I will be increasing that personal best every week!

December 3rd=Death or Victory

This ^ will be me on December 3rd 2011!!

I am running in the St. Jude Half Marathon!

I'm so excited but really really really nervous.

I'm barely able to run 3 miles, but I decided to run 13.1 anyways.

I've got the socks, the shoes, the Garmin Forerunner 305.

Even the spandex capris

I'm legit. Too Legit Too Legit to Quit (At least I hope so).

This is truly on my bucket list.

My goal is to really get back up to my 3 miles this week.

I took a running break because we had vacations, extremely hot weather, and laziness.

I'm easily running two so I just have to get that 3 miles back in.

Hopefully I will be back to three miles by the end of this week

So I can officially start my training.

I need major support and encouragment.

If I die...make sure I'm buried in my t-shirt and medal...

with my spandex capris.

Always a Bride, Never a Bridesmaid...

Until NOW!! I'm so excited to finally say that I have been a bridesmaid.







I can now say things like:

Uggh, those awful bridesmaid dresses. (Not really, I liked mine).
I can't believe our bride made us do that (Also not true)
When I was a bridesmaid...



I can understand how being a bridesmaid is stressful, but I have to admit that the fact that someone cared enough about me and our friendship to ask me to stand beside them while they married their true love was a wonderful feeling.

This was the bride.

This is totally out of focused for the blog. Her dress was so much prettier in person and she looked amazing!!



These were the bridesmaids:

And here is what I did when no one was looking:

I was totally the classiest bridesmaid there. Did I mention that it was 98 degrees and the wedding was outside. See, it makes more sense what I am doing now.

I had a wonderful time during the wedding and made some new friends.

Oh! And now I can say," Oh, this apron? It was my bridesmaid gift from my friend when she got married...because I was her bridesmaid."