I came home on Wednesday night sans hubs to celebrate my dad's 50th birthday. My mom donned her wig and my sister, dad, and I ate at the new Japanese Hibachi restaurant in Dyersburg and then watched The Blind Side. That movie was wonderful and I enjoyed the time spent with family.
Thursday morning, my sister cook sausage pinwheels, which is a Holiday morning tradition. I then cooked Pineapple Casserole for my family's Thanksgiving meal. Andrew drove to Dyersburg that morning and I met him at his family's for their Thanksgiving. Andrew's family is always fun because at one point our nephew Jacob was being punished in the backroom, niece Anna was upset because Jacob had messed up her toys, Andrew's developmentally delayed sister Stephanie was also crying for some reason. Andrew did a wonderful job of calming his 28 year old sister down. The food was great, and then we immediately left for my family's Thanksgiving. I played Spinner Dominoes and Skip-bo with my sister, cousin, and grandmother. We had a wonderful time! Andrew had to leave that evening to head back to work.
Then Friday hit.
My dad had to get back on the road (truck driver) at 12:00am. When the truck was backing out of our driveway at 1:00am, Portia (my wonderful dog) started barking and growling at the huge lights at the cab. I fussed at her, she stopped. I went back to bed. Then she started again. I grabbed her and brought her into my bedroom. Portia did not want to stay in the room and fussed and whined. I then decided that if she wanted to be outside, she would go OUTSIDE! My original plan was to put her into the garage, but because of how my mom's van was parked I couldn't close the garage. At this point I didn't care, I threw the dog outside. I went to bed, not feeling guilty until I started thinking," What if she starts to chase a deer and runs too far away?" or "What if a bobcat gets her?" Thankfully, I woke up with her safely laying on the couch. I could wipe the sweat off of my brow.
My mom had a rough Friday morning. She said that she woke up feeling great and she knew that it was going to be a pretty good day. She shared with me that with chemo, not only did she lose the hair on her head, but her nose hairs as well. Because of that, she has no barrier to hold in any boogers or to stop her nose from running. Her eyes also water all the time. This particular morning, my mom was taking her liquid vitamin and suddenly had to run to the bathroom to throw up. My mom keeps using positive self-talk. All morning I heard her saying things to herself like:
1. Only 3 more [Chemo treatments] left. Only 3 more left.
2. You are not going to get sick. You are not going to get sick.
3. You will not throw up again. You will not throw up again.
4. You will get through this. You will get through this.
This Thanksgiving, I'm thankful for family support. I never would have thought that this year would be like this. I'm ready for 2010 to get here and the chemo treatments to be in the past.