So many thoughts, so little time

I have so many things on my mind that I want to share with my very little blogger audience. I would like to share how God has instilled in me a new passion for reading His word. Recently, I had noticed and was ashamed that when we were reading from the Bible, my eyes would read the words, but my heart would not. I am ashamed to admit that. I didn't know what was wrong with me. How could I try to disciple youth and not be able to soak up what God was showing me? This has been a burden on my heart for a little while. "What a faker?" was what I was thinking. I don't know what happened because last week or so, I woke up and thought that I really needed some help with reading my Bible, so I went to Lifeway and dug through the millions of devotionals. I decided on one that went through women of the Bible. It was interesting enough and I have enjoyed it because it picked a woman and the whole week was about her. After about 2 weeks of working with that devotional, I have decided that it's not enough. I want to be IN God's word. I want to study a chapter and absorb more than just about a woman in the Bible. I hope that this desire lasts and that I will be able to memorize more scripture.