It's time for another one of these posts. I know I know I know that God has his own timing and it's better to wait until after I graduate, but I can't help how I feel.
Whenever I look at facebook and I see another person is pregnant and they have been married for a shorter time than me, I get sad. I get this longing in my heart as if I'm missing out of something. I know that I could get pregnant (if God allows) if I wanted to because I'm pretty sure I could twist Andrew's arm into thinking it's a good idea, but in the back of my mind I know it's not the right time yet.
I work well with lists, so here is a list for why it's not a good reason for me to reproduce yet:
1. School
I have two and a half years to graduate and I don't know how I will handle working full time plus internships plus a baby.
2. Jobs
Andrew is working 3rd shift and sleeps during the day, so I would be doing a lot of the parenting by myself because Andrew would need his sleep during the day.
3. Daycare
After I went back to work I would have to put our baby in daycare, but I just don't trust any of the daycares around here, maybe the 1st baptist daycare-but could we afford it
4. Family
Our family is so far away. We have our church family as support here, but it's not the same.
5. Travel
I feel as if Andrew and I haven't really been able to experience the excitement of being newly married and taking vacations or traveling to random spots. We haven't even been able to go to the zoo together because our schedules are so opposite. We have plans to take random day trips once he graduates and gets a better job.
Okay, that's my list. I have talked myself down a little bit...until next time.
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